do you see it? can you hear it?

saturday i visited my mother in law for the last time, she died a few hours after i left. sunday i helped a friend with his brothers service. monday i attended a service for my bonus daughters step dad. 

death. we cant avoid it. its going to happen. and there is no pause button. it doesnt matter how many deaths you have in a week or a lifetime, nothing really prepares you for it. but theres also something about life right in the middle of death. when i was driving to see my mother in law, i took a back road, scenic, along the river. i drove slower and i could hear the birds. and see butterflies. and the scenery. it was beautiful. any other time ive gone to visit, i take a regular road and drive the speed limit (ok, maybe a little over). and i miss most of what i listed above. its a shame to miss so much life. sunday morning i went for a walk, and it was beautiful, and quiet. the breeze in my face was chilly but so nice at the same time. and at my friends brothers service there was so much life! do you see it?


life keeps moving. death keeps coming. a quote from a video i watched speaks so much truth--"we dont move on with grief, we move forward with it." i have to add--its not easy. but lets be more purposeful in slowing down and listening to creation. lets be more purposeful in connecting and communicating with family. lets choose not to wait for the funeral.

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Wag said…
“...life right in the middle of death...” - Fantastic insight!
April 16, 2019 at 4:59 AM
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