Shine Today

This picture speaks volumes about my life right now. Specifically that a grandchild played with these, which happens a lot. All of my grands have liked playing in the kitchen drawers and cabinets. It's not unusual to see canned food displayed on the tv stand, and the occasional pot laying around too.  Sometimes it causes an issue when I need something and cannot find it.  Back in the day i would have told my kids to put it away. But there's a huge difference being a grandma.  I have stopped begin so quick to "put their imagination away". Thats the best way I can describe it. Instead I have stepped back and watched more. Wish I could have done this as a parent. There are plenty of other things to worry about, and for now, silverware, measuring cups, pots & pans, and food containers are not one of them. And I'm ok with that.

It's been a bit since i've written. Life just flies by. I think part of the reason i havent written is i find myself wondering what to share. So I'm just going to be real. Life has been hard these past few months. Actually, a few years. The most challenging is my inability to get my house in order. I want to be able to get to the place to have people over again and they have a place to sit. I want to be able to have dinner at the table, or play games, or build a puzzle. But theres just so much stuff, everywhere. And then we got a puppy, because having a full house with two children isn't enough. My husband brought her home. I get it, i've done it. but we weren't ready for a puppy. In the middle of all this, my sister-in-law died from a complication during surgery. The reality of grief has hit a whole new way, and all the "firsts" without her were immediate, like the next day! Oh and don't forget, menopause arrived! And then another grandbaby was bo...