Thursday, September 27, 2012

11 Years, same story

I've been homeschooling for 11 years now.  Actually just into year 12.  And, I still cannot figure out how to "teach."  Such an easy word when you look at it.  -impart knowledge or skill to; give instruction to-  Yet time and time again, I impart knowledge, I give instruction and my kids stare at me like I said nothing.  Time and time again, when I finish teaching and leave them to finish, I hear "I need help" or end up marking several wrong.  This is where I can have a melt down, start to get frustrated.  Why?  Because I really believe I'm supposed to finish schooling my youngest at home.  And this is where I begin to question myself, "am I really??"  It seems that no matter what, there are times I just cannot make the way I know how to do something come out in a way that gets the person I'm teaching the ability to understand.  4 kids. a classroom of kids.  various ages.  All with the same result.  Did I fail my older kid?  The class I taught?  Am I failing my youngest?