Sunday, December 30, 2007

December 30, 2007

It is the end of the year already. I cannot believe it. My oldest is 18 1/2, my son is 16 and my youngest will be 5 in 4 days. So, some reflections of 2007…
* Brittani turned 18
* Vince turned 16
* My father-in-law passed away
* My friends’ son passed away
* My dog, Lightning passed away
* We got a new puppy
* I have learned to let go and let my children grow (and still learning!)
* We went independent in homeschool
* I turned 40
* I learned how to make sourdough bread, mmmm mmmmm good!
* I let my youngest have an imagination! (you’ll have to ask, but it has to do with not worrying about the small stuff)
* Camping in August
* Surprise Birthday lunch
* Thanksgiving Day was great and so was the day after
* Taia was healed
* Grace again and again
* I’m learning how to shine, to love, to embrace and to see things more clearly
* I am learning to dream again…

Time is too short to stay angry, too short to not laugh. We never know what someone is going through, so we just need to love more and laugh more. And, I think it’s time we all made a “bucket” list and start doing them! Why wait? Ok…Happy New Year!

Thursday, December 13, 2007


At what point did this journey take me where I’ve never been before? Last year? 5 years ago? And when did things become so … different? Last night at 242, Greg went back over the words that spelled “WASTE” from Sunday’s message. Worry. Anger. Striving. Turmoil. Explaining. And it really hit me. I have turmoil. Not as much as I used to. But, there are still times when things inside just become a whirling mess. But, this revelation didn’t overwhelm me like usual. It was clarity, clarity among the turmoil. Doesn’t seem possible. But, for the first time, I realized it’s about trust. OK, I don’t mean my first time ever hearing about it. I’ve known that most of the crap, the worry, the explaining boils down to not trusting that God has everything under control and that all I really need to do is look to Him. I’ve heard it. Every Sunday message boils down to loving God and trusting Him. But this time, I faced it. Last night, I looked at trust and realized that no, I do not trust God with every part of my life. The crazy thing is it’s not that I think I can take care of it all myself either. It’s just that I don’t trust Him. Wow, did I really just type that? Trust God with what? My husband. My children. My weight. My house. My walk with Him and this deep desire for more.
Trusting Him. Somewhere I’ve really only been a little bit, or have I? I know there is more. Not materially. Spiritually. More with Him. More relationship with Him. More knowledge, wisdom, love, discipline. More GOD, less ME. And so, a new path begins, or maybe not so new in as much as it’s just letting go…

Thursday, December 6, 2007

It's Official

It's official, I own a blog. I will start with something simple, and then who knows...

It is the season of business, shopping, spending, spending more, wrapping, putting up lights, being in crowded places, standing in long lines, oh, and did I say spend? All for Christmas. But wait. Isn't it Christ Mas? The reason for the season Jesus? For most of us, we know that it is the day we, as Christians, celebrate the birth of Christ Jesus. But it's almost like after that, we stop. We forget that He actually grew up. OK, so, ready? Here it is, plain and simple:

I bring you good news of GREAT joy!
A Savior has been born!
and YOU Can find Him!

It really is that simple, and the greatest news ever. Today, we can find Him, Jesus, Emmanuel. And when we find Him, we will shine. Not because of anything we do, but simply because He is in us and He shines. Then we are called to let our light shine - that's where the "do" comes in. Now, we have to peel off the layers of human so that we can shine for all to see. It is time to shine. People need to see the light. And if we all shine, we will be the city of hope people need to see and they will run to it, they will run to Jesus.
"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.
Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl.
Instead they put it on its stand, and it give light to everyone in the house.
In the same way, let your light shine before men,
that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
Matthew 5:14-16

Shine Today. As long as it is called today, SHINE.